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KS Unregistered User (11/11/01 8:36 am)	Theory of why we deny what we see I have seen many people, who either work for SRF, are monastics or which otherwise have seen what SRF is really like on the inside yet they don’t acknowledge it. I have heard things like “I have just decided I need to work here” or “I just wanted to be a monk/nun all my life” or “I still think this is the best way to serve Master” or “It is like this everywhere”. When I finally admitted to myself that the bad ladies were just a cult it was devastating. I had to admit that I had made a mistake, I had been duped. I can remember for years feeling sorry for and making fun of all those followers of those other cults. They were stupid for believing that Maharisi so and so was a saint! Thank heaven I had found SRF! We were the true way and truly the highest teaching. Well, I was deceived (partly by my own ego of course). What makes it worst is that Master is real and his teachings are real. Delusion had formed a very cleaver veil, wrapping a wonderful Master in a disappointing cult as a last attempt to keep me from directly working with Master and thinking for myself. Maya had pumped up my ego and made me feel I was special and had found the one true religion of the next age. Very clever. Many monastics (those still there) and members can’t allow the realization of what the bad ladies are to become real for them. If they do, it means they made a mistake and a large part of their lives have been spent in a lie. That is a very difficult thing to take on. Maya uses that to good advantage and holds many devotees in her grip with it, using our egos against us for the zillionth time. Eventually there is too much evidence, too many inconsistencies, and the wall crumbles down. The crash is hard and devastating. I would suggest everyone take it on sooner rather than later so they can get on with their lives and make real progress. They can even start helping others as they crash through the wall.
Been there Unregistered User (11/11/01 12:35 pm)	KS's post Great post, KS. I agree. It is very painful to realize that you haven't "found it" like you thought you had! But it is all a big lila, isn't it? Everyone plays their part and no one knows how the whole thing fits together until the last veil is gone. In the meantime, as you said, it is good that we can help each other to realize that through the pain comes a greater inner relationship with God and a renewed sense of happiness and wonder at it all.
member108 Registered User (5/14/02 6:32 am)	Re: When the dam breaks I agree that we have been deceived. I am disappointed that SRF would trade on the wonderful words and life of Yogananda to maintain their easy life and powerful positions without fulfilling the real purpose of the organization (which I believe is to get his words out into the world). Why this religion for the new age crap? Why do they have to build a cult? I was angry when I found out and felt betrayed. We were betrayed and we were stupid and our egos were involved. I hate it when that happens. Edited by: member108 at: 5/14/02 6:34:43 am
Rosemarie7 Registered User (10/25/02 12:00 am)	Re: Theory of why we deny what we see I felt this warm fuzzy feeling that they had all the answers if only I could stop fighting with the dogma and incongruities. But I couldn't. I must have thrown every lesson at the wall, but I wanted Kriya. So I forced myself into a box and tried to rationalize things like, sex is a sin and the way they talked as if God is far away and we need to beg for his favors. I'm a writer and spend a lot of time alone, I liked the fellowship and found the devotional ceremonies uplifting. I think I always had one foot out the door. I'm guessing it has been easier for me, because I have only been going for three years? I have always felt drawn to Yogananda ever since I first saw his picture, I thought he was beautiful at first sight. I also find him easy to talk to. After I got Kriya I felt bound, married and still do. I'm not sure I could break that promise and feel good about it. Miracles do happen when I ask him for help, I couldn't over look these as coincidences. So I kept trying to believe SRF's twisted logic. The big shock came five days ago when I found Walrus by accident, or maybe an act of God? It hurt, I was lost, tonight was my first meditation in days, my mind was not still. Thanks to all of you at Walrus I am separating the real Yogananda from SRF dogma. I was happiest when I read Whispers From Eternity and didn't know there were temples. Joe Campbell said, "No matter where your seat at the opera, it was a really good show." So lets enjoy the show kids! "God is good, God is having fun, he plays with us" Out of Africa. Edited by: Rosemarie7 at: 10/25/02 12:10:09 am

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