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Lobo
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(1/7/03 7:55 pm)
 Re: Most members happy?
Maybe SRF will somehow in the future revise the teachings to include the reality of householder's lives. As someone plagued by the "perfectionist" neurosis when I initially became a member I was very gung-ho and "lived the life" for a few years.

But the environment of my life changed and made it more difficult to be as "gung-ho", meaning that I began to miss the EE's and sometimes meditation. Then it was missing the morning meditation. Then it was the evening meditation.

All the while I felt like a loser. When I attended services it seemed that I was a hypocrite, the line attributed to Jesus in the New Testament ran through my head, "why call me Christ, Christ, when you do not the things I said"?

The inner conflict became unbearable and I stopped trying altogether. A period of years, many years passed. Sometimes I would attempt sadhana again but couldn't sustain the effort, which would just make me more miserable.

Later due to difficult health challenges I re-found the path. Although I am now on permanent disability and have loads of time it is still sometimes difficult to live the life everyday. Although I do meditate before bed which back in the beginning I would've called a poseur, today that is just where I am, and I've learned some acceptance of being a mortal.

What I'm trying to get at is the fact that if I'd been able to allow myself the room to not do all the sadhana and was able to see that sometimes it's not possible in today's hurried and frantic world, it would have maybe kept me from falling off the path for those many years.

An either/or when it comes to sadhana leads very quickly to a bad place where if one's a perfectionist it's usually bail the program. Perhaps SRF can see that, have psychologists, sociologists, and other learned persons evaluate the Lessons, make informed input, and revise them with an eye to making them doable for those in the real world.

PY was God-obsessed, God-crazy. He taught from that plane, and wanted his disciples to imitate, and then find within themselves, the same fervor for God where one is willing to give everything to find Her. But most people aren't in that spot, at least initially (like a few thousand incarnations), and the above approach might soften SRF's image to make it more credible, and experiential, for today's spiritual seekers.

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